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Testimonies

Audio and video recordings of survivors and witnesses. Each recording carries a written transcript and a content warning where appropriate. Nothing here plays on its own.

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George 

Survivor, age 15 in 1977 · Botmeh, Chouf

Recorded 2024 · Written testimony

"That night my father called from Beirut. He told me I was authorized to use what he had taught me — to open the safe, take out the grenade and the old Russian gun, and protect the family. I was fifteen. The first home attacked in Botmeh was ours."

I was studying in Mazraat al-Shuf. On March 16, 1977 — a Wednesday — they started killing the Christians there very early, killing all the Christians who were in town that day, even before news broke of Kamal Jumblatt's assassination. I escaped by sheer luck, as the school bus left around 3pm.

Then I had to live through an endless night in Botmeh, followed by three days of continuous threat, as they began killing the Christians there too. My father was stuck on the road — he was in Beirut and couldn't make it back to the Chouf that evening. As the eldest son, I was left in charge of my mother, two brothers, one sister, and my grandparents.

By pure luck, I decided to hide in my grandparents' house — and that decision saved us, because the first home attacked in Botmeh was ours. I was 15 years old. I can still hear the echo of my father's voice on the phone that night: "Tonight, you're authorized to use what I've taught you recently to protect the family." That meant I could open the safe and take out the grenade and the old Russian gun my uncle had left behind before moving to Dubai.

I remember every minute of that night. I dreamed about it for years and I still feel that terror today. The image of the dead bodies laid out on biers hastily built from the wooden benches of our old church has never left my memory. I visit Botmeh each time I am in Lebanon — but I can never manage to sleep there a single night.

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Marie H.

Survivor, Damour · Damour, Mount Lebanon

Recorded 2019 · 48 min

"We left the house with only the clothes we were wearing. My mother thought we were going for one night. She kept the key in her hand for thirty years."

00:00 / 48 min · transcript available

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Father Elias

Parish priest · Ehden, North Lebanon

Recorded 2015 · 1 h 12 min

"The bells did not ring that morning. That is how the mountain knew."

00:00 / 1 h 12 min · transcript available

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Anonymous

Civilian, East Beirut · Ashrafieh, Beirut

Recorded 2011 · 34 min

"For a hundred days we counted the shells the way farmers count rain. Not the same, but that was the rhythm we learned."

00:00 / 34 min · transcript available

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Samia T.

Displaced villager · Aishiyeh, South Lebanon

Recorded 2007 · 56 min

"The village was quiet for years before it fell. That quiet was not peace. It was waiting."

00:00 / 56 min · transcript available

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Questions about these testimonies

Whose testimonies are recorded here?

The archive holds 5 testimonies from survivors, witnesses, clergy, and civilians who lived through the massacres and displacements suffered by the Christian communities of Lebanon, recorded in Lebanon and in the diaspora.

How are testimonies verified?

Each testimony is recorded or received in writing, cross-read against the archive's event records for date and place, and published with the speaker's chosen level of identification. Where a speaker asks to remain anonymous, the archive keeps the identifying details out of the public record.

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